There was a time when landscape photography opened doors I never expected. I tested lenses and cameras for Sigma, worked with Leofoto and H&Y, spoke at events for CameraNu.nl and connected with photographers from both the Netherlands and abroad. There were interviews, collaborations and plans for workshops.
Photography occupied an increasingly important place in my life during those years. It felt as if new opportunities kept appearing and that journey would continue for many years to come.
But life does not always follow the path you expect.
When I see workshops, photography tours and new collaborations today, I genuinely wish everyone involved the very best. At the same time, it can be difficult. Not out of jealousy, but because it reminds me of a period when my world felt bigger and many things seemed natural and attainable.
Sometimes I miss that period more than I would like to admit.
Photography Requires Different Choices
Thankfully, I can still photograph. It simply requires different choices than it used to.
My energy is more limited and my back no longer allows me to do everything I once could. Because of that, I think differently about the equipment I carry. Less weight, less gear and less physical strain often create more room to actually enjoy being out with a camera.
In some ways, that feels ironic. For years I spoke about the value of filters, tripods and careful preparation in landscape photography. Now I find myself looking for ways to simplify things.
Perhaps that means a lighter setup. Fewer filters. Sometimes even photographing handheld.
Not because I prefer it, but because my body forces me to make different decisions.
Even so, those choices allow me to continue doing something I still love: being outdoors, photographing landscapes and enjoying nature.
When Dreams and Expectations Shift
The physical changes are only part of the story.
Some connections gradually fade. Not because of bad intentions, but because life moves on. People continue building their careers, starting new projects and meeting new people.
That is completely understandable.
Yet sometimes it feels as though you are slowly moving further away from a world where you once felt fully involved.
Financially, things have changed as well. Since I now rely on disability benefits, I look differently at equipment, travel and investments. Landscape photography remains a wonderful passion, but it is also an expensive one. Gear, travel and fuel can quickly add up.
Perhaps all of that is part of change.
I would like to say that I have completely accepted it, but that would not be true. Some days are easier than others.
Maybe that, too, is a form of grief. Not for a single event, but for a period of life that is slowly becoming a memory.
What Remains
What has remained is my enthusiasm for landscapes, light and nature.
Photography may look different than it once did, but it still holds the same value for me. It brings calm, distraction and moments of wonder.
My circumstances may have changed, but the reason why I photograph remains exactly the same.
And as long as I can head outside with a camera, no matter how short or simple the trip may be, there will always be something left of the photographer I used to be. In fact, perhaps that photographer never really disappeared.
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